a glance back

i've finally decided to run away, to plunge into the journey i've postponed for so long. as i embark, leaving behind all that i know, i find myself intimidated. i've said that it is time and i'm ready- that is true- but i was not honest with my tone and my flippancy. i am sad for those that i'm leaving behind because i know things will never be the same. something inside of me mourned and grieved for that a long time ago. it's strange, i feel like i left a long time ago.